Reality

You hold me like a long-term lover

with safety, adoration, patience 

and all the time in the world

We know our days are numbered

We are pretending 

that it doesn't matter

You hold me

while I miss you

and all the life together

that we won't have

I saw your dating profile today.

My heart dropped to my feet

and I left it there

shattered

for the third time

for the last time 

(I hope)

I'll accept the blame

but I still can't accept 

that you're already gone.